Tonight I decided to jump. I don't mean that I am looking for a bridge or anything like that, but it kind of feels that way.
Yesterday I was talking to some of my close friends about something that I feel God calling me to. I use the term "calling" only because I don't know of a word that works better. In fact, now that I think about it I feel that the word "called" should go in my previous post. I mean how does one know if they are "called" to do anything. In my opinion we are all called. Everyone of us is called, so a fair question would be why did I feel a calling.
To be honest I think that I just knew that there was a certain something that I was supposed to do. That thing had or has to do with seminary classes and ordination stuff. Other than that I don't really know how to explain it except that it felt like I was on a giant cliff getting ready to dive into the water. I knew I should dive but I am afraid of high places.
I asked my friends about it. I said what would you do if you were on a cliff and you felt like you were supposed to jump into a lake. I thought I was being so subtle. I thought I was so sneaky, but I am afraid that they all knew what I was talking about.
Well anyway, tonight I decided to jump. To be honest I am afraid that there will not be any water at the bottom, only rocks. Be that as it may, I have to stay faithful to what I am supposed to do. If any of you have any specific questions about what this means I will only tell you that I am sorting it out. I will also say that I am not going to let fear keep me from obeying in this area, but I will probably ask some of you something like this. Let's say you are treading water in the middle of a lake...
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well, I know you mean on the phrase "calling" for sure. It seems like to me that some church goers use that phrase as a means to justify something they want to do, knowing that other people can't really argue with them due to them professing it as a calling from God.
Anyway. I think that is very exciting. I think you certainly a man trying to follow God and it shows on a daily basis. Going with your metaphor, I think I've been plugging down a leap for about three years now.
I was thinking about the ropes course and how you might feel when you are being lower once you are finished climbing. It is very exciting and exhilarating, yet scary too. Just like you might say during the debriefing time, I think when you are being lowered down it is a time to think and trust, but once you hit the bottom the main objective of the whole thing was preparing you for the journey you are about to start. I think that this desire God seems to be manifesting in your soul is exciting and can see a great many things God could use you for. Hope the plunge goes well, but once you hit the bottom I pray you will be able to take off running!
the more i climb the more i realize, or thought i realized, that i had a fear of heights. but when i actually get into a climb i am devastated by the fact that it isnt heights that bothers me, but falling, the act of falling, and the impact that falling has on my mentality. i cant say that i have ever been in your exact situation, but i can let you know ill pray for you. in my opinion i think jumping into the rocks is better than having never jumped at all and never knowing what could have been...... solid right?
Hey that's great Trent! Really excited to hear that.
I hope to begin a Masters in Theological Education at Kings College (Univ London) this Autumn myself. I'm considering Seminary after that.
You're already a good teacher. I can't imagine that gift combined with the knowledge you'll gain at Seminary. Would be a powerful combination.
Thank you for pressing on.
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