centerfold

I am human. More human than I would ever like to admit. No, really, I mean it. You see when I started this blog I figured that it would be an opportunity for me to share what is going on inside me. That is why I like to describe it as faith from the inside out. By that I mean that by my descriptions of what I see from the inside, hopefully you will be able to see what faith means to me from the outside. I suppose I also thought it would be interesting to some people.

By sharing these internal observations I feel like I am baring my soul. Baring is not something that I do well. I was married for five years before I would unlock the bathroom door. Donald Miller says something that makes me think we are soul mates. He says that if he could wear clothes while showering, he would. I know what you mean, Donald.

Now Donald was talking about physical nakedness, but emotional and spiritual nakedness is just as real, and just as scary. This would be meaningless to me if it were not for the fact that I decided to put a counter on my blog. I suppose that this was so that I could see how many people were choosing to peek at my emotional and spiritual vulnerability. From the looks of my counter I can leave the shades up and the lights on.

Maybe that is what has me bummed. Being vulnerable is not something that I do well but I hoped that if I did, someone would want to see. I guess I figured that my vulnerability would be of interest to someone. Surely my emotional being is centerfold quality.

I kind of sucks to think that middle age and pudgy applies to more than just my body.